Tuesday, November 20, 2007

On the verge

Sometimes I have to take a step outside of my body, take a look at what surrounds me and ask myself, "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?" I'm beginning to wonder these days whether or not I really appreciate being the blanket that other people use to cover their asses. Strap me to a fucking post, people. I have turned into your accountability. I am young and susceptible, and you put me in a position to take 40 lashes in every direction? Is this leadership? Yeah, if you call leading a lamb to slaughter leadership, then call it like you see it.

Only time will tell if I can really take all this. I wanted to be in an environment with a lot of pressure a lot of drive to succeed, but it was only a matter of time before I looked for ways to relieve the everyday pressure of being the seive that filters other people's bullshit. The only thing this gives me is a guaranteed dirty feeling.

2 comments:

Olivia said...

Why is it the people who work hardest and take responsibility get all the blame?
A friend of mine works harder than her colleagues, a bunch of slackers, so much of the work gets dumped on her. She does more than her job title requires, and last week she asked for a raise/promotion and they said no. Wankers.

lunaliar said...

That's pretty much what's wrong with the corporate environment today. Everyone closest to the big bosses get their favor, the peons breaking their backs get nothing.